Relationships are an illusion...

This blog has been abandoned for over two years now. Life took over. This blog was originally a break-up project, something to keep my mind off (or on) a major breakup that happened with what I still consider the love of my life, but like all the relationships I had so far, didn't work out.

The whole shoe and socks buying and blogging thing was a nice distraction from my misery and also a way to get my ex to pay attention to me even after we broke up. I know, this sounds terribly immature. But this blog is a place where I can be honest. Because probably no one ever reads it really.

Three years and another broken relationship later, I'm even more bitter, cynical and hopeless than I've ever been before. When I see people in a relationship all I can think about is that it's only a question of time, and theirs will be over too. I can see the faults or the fucked up interaction between couples when I hear them calling each other on their iPhones, or meeting up for lunch. It's all so temporary and hopeless.

Whatever was left of the naive and romantic me has been drowned time and time again in failed relationships. By now, I'm completely disillusioned about marriage and relationships and, unfortunately, completely immune to falling in love ever again.

After all, falling in love is the only thing that makes two strangers choose to share the same roof, split their genetic code and other assets, and settle for something that is so fickle and unreliable. I'm so jaded.